I am young and easily influenced to what people may say
Still I can’t help wondering why I just don’t fit in
I am told I am not normal and I shouldn’t behave that way
I am told not being normal really is a major sin
As I spend my life conforming being miserable without joy
Wishing I could wear red trousers change my hair to wearing dreads
Or just scream when people whisper and turn left when they turn right
Feeling envious of those brave enough I make friends with a “different” girl and boy
With their different looking hairstyle and their different colored threads
They tell me if I want to let myself be free I must put up a fight.

 

Still I find myself following and rules and doing as I am told
Get a job and pay my taxes, have a child and settle down
Will I ever end my normal life will I ever be so bold
Or will I spend my whole life feeling I am just about to drown
Then one day I made a decision to learn to speak up loud
Desperate for my daughter to grow up following her heart
I began to change the status quo and express my deepest thought
That instead of doing as I am told and following the crowd
I should follow what is right for me even if we grow apart
The sacrifice of what I lost was filled with pain and fraught

 

Today life is so happy and it’s filled with so much joy
I am as different as I like and life takes on new meaning
Yes I’ve had moments of struggle when I questioned my whole ploy
Did I mess up my whole family with my freedom intervening
Then my children let me know how happy they are and fully self expressed
And I know beyond a shadow of doubt the change was worth the loss
So I focus on what’s great in life and how I am now free
I can tell myself despite the past I really am the best
Because not being normal means I really am the boss
I can now live the second half of my life enjoying being me.

 

Diane Corriette

June 2013

 

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