I was a woman with no self confidence and at the age of 25 I made the conscious effort to change that because I didn’t want my daughter to be affected with low self esteem in the way that I was.
It worked because I increased my self confidence one step at a time.
There was no mad rush to make things happen. First I went from being afraid to go out to the shops alone to actually doing it and going alone. My fear was I would park the car and not be able to find it again, and on one occasion that did happen.
There were two lifts in the multi-storey car park, one that took you to floors 1, 3 and 5 and the other took you to floors 2, 4 and 6. I parked on floor two and on my return from the shopping centre I stepped into the lift for floors 1,3 and 5.
The security guard thought I was crazy when I went up to him and told him I couldn’t find my car – the whole floor no longer existed (yes I really did believe that!) Of course I felt totally foolish when I realised my mistake.
But that was the kind of crazy lack of self confidence that I was dealing with. I was so in fear of so many things that I had doubt about my ability to do anything with any degree of success.
I always wondered what my then partner was doing with me and why he wanted to be with me when there were so many other women out there instead.
It really took a lot to change who I was to who I am – there is no messing with me and I talk straight and shoot from the hip (as the expression goes) – the only reason that happened was because I increased my self confidence one step at a time.
I took one issue I didn’t like and dealt with it before moving on. 19 years later I’m a bit of an altogether fabulous foxy chick – even if I do say so myself 🙂